a long day;

the whole journal, diary, blog thing is hard for me, because i always forget to update, or i become lazy. wordpress’s layout is confusing for me; everything is everywhere. this is my third [?] attempt for a blog. i hope this time i’ll keep it updated so you guys can have a gist of what’s happening in my life (:

oh! so one of my friend’s got me a jonas brother ticket, for their concert in richmond. it’s like 2 hours away from where i live, so i’m not sure if my mom would let me go, but i have to! joe jonas is so hott, cute, and funny. puahah. i really want to meet them. i also heard they’re going to be in fairfax. hopefully i can go to that one too. jonasx2 in a week? -› almost a dream come true. this morning at 10, i instantly went to ticketmaster.com and looked for tickets, i got floor 5 tickets. since the 1st 20 rows were reserved for the people at the box office, the seats weren’t that bad. but in those few seconds all the other jonas fans got to get a hold of the seats in floor 3, and 4. i couldn’t buy those tickets because my mom said richmond was too far. that was like tearing a whole in my heart D: afterwards; i was talking to my friend, she really wanted me to go. she was willing to find me a ride, and she bought a ticket for me, because i don’t have a credit card. it was really hectic, me and her tried to keep those seats until she got a hold of a credit card. i lost those seats 3 times due to the time restraints. during my 3rd time a customer walked in, my time ran out and my friend managed to get them. talk about luckk. she bought it, so i should be sitting at .. section 1A; row b; seat number 10 & man was i a happy jonas fan !

i’ve come to realize that my life is full of drama no matter what. as i’ve grown up, i seem to be getting into a lot more than i want. i’m really a no-drama type of person. i guess the drama level will continue to increase all the up until high school. from what my sister told me, after high school everything changes because we aren’t at school anymore. and gossip and news don’t travel as fast. but as much as i want to graduate i don’t want the responsibilities that come along with growing up. it’s weird, children want to grow up, whereas adults sometimes want to return to their childhood. makes me wonder what age is actually the ideal age. as of right now i have no idea what i want to do with my life when i get older. my dream job for 5 years nows has been to become a pediatrician. i’m not sure if i want to stay in school for that long before coming out to the real world. all that studying and working towards my education for a good job, is it worth it? could i just major in something else, and get out of school earlier, while making just as much or even more - and i enjoy my job? observing how my siblings are taking the “real” world, isn’t so great. they’ve dealt with debt, rent, car payments, etc. they aren’t even that old. i try imagining that kind of life for 40 + years. blah; that what makes me not want to grow up quickly, but i want the privileges that we are able to have, like driving, or moving out etc (:

oh; i’ve also noticed - this past yearr. i started to type smilies in my sentences more, a lot more. i want to reduce the amount, but the sentence just doesn’t seem the same. i’d type “xD, (:, :], :P, o_O, o_o;, -_-;, x_x, T_T, ^-^, >_>, >_<, :D, ):, D:, ]:<, =]” and some others, sometimes i feel like i overuse them; worrying i might annoy the person i’m talking to since i keep on typing them. heh. so if you ever talk to me on AIM, or myspace; please realize that the smilies i type are almost basically involuntary. (: